Sunday - More soccer (dad's perpsectives)

More soccer today; this time a practice. I stayed the night at CNS and woke up early this morning to take Isaac to be with the family. It was early so I could get a run in while it was cool outside. He stayed at the house, waking mom and Brea up while I went on the run.

I was late to the practice because I had a 7 mile goal for my training today. Then center is training him in PT to be able to run a 5K race with me when he finishes his rehab. I'm continuing to move ahead in the distance field by training for a half marathon in December. Personal goals are the hardest because you don't want to take away from the family, but you HAVE to set aside time for you at some point.

I've spoken to both of my teens this weekend about goals. My lesson in life has been that, regardless of how much I wanted to lose weight; no matter how much I wanted to get into a routine; no matter how I talked people into working with me, if I started working and stopped working it I could not rely on those with me to motivate me or to persevere despite me. I was being looked at for my ability to lead, but I was constantly trying to release that responsibility to others and expecting them to follow.

I finally realized it was my responsibility to motivate myself, whether alone or in a group. I know that others will eventually want to follow, and I can help them if they want, but it still revolves around me to maintain that leadership. I still find it hard to get myself up to run, now that it is getting cold outside, my body is too hooked on the feeling after I run that I actually feel bad when I dont. Then funny thing is...I miss it.

OK, so after the running came soccer practice. That was interesting, because they were doing drills when I got to the field. It turned into kicking against the keeper (me), and that liked to have killed me given the prior activity. I tried to maintain as much as possible until I finally called for a break. I tried getting out and kicking against my son, but I was already too wasted.

Jesse and I went home to shower, then came back to meet the rest at Chili's, including Josh who is subbing with our team now. Afterwards we all corraled at home to get everything in order. Mom then took Isaac to the apartment, while we chilled and watched a movie at home.